New Year, New Attitude, New Body

First post.

Weird, in preparing to start this blog, I had so many things to say, but now as I sit down to start writing, I’ve completely forgot.

Let’s start at the beginning.  I used to be hot.  But not that low self-esteem, looking for attention hot, but the natural, “I don’t care what anyone thinks” type of hot.  Unfortunately, now, I’m not.  I could blame it on having kids, I could blame it on school, I could blame it on high stress.  The truth is that I never put into place any decent habits.

When I was thinner, I used to work out.  Not really in the gym, but I played volleyball and basketball.  But not for a quick workout, it would be for hours.  On Saturday morning, you could find me in UCLA’s gym playing from about 8 until… well, until I got hungry.  Then life got in the way and I never adapted.

So, here I am – about 100 pounds overweight – wanting to play with my son, but he’s so small and quick and full of energy, I can’t keep up.  Although there have been no real health scares because of my weight, I certainly want to be here when my son has his children.

This is the first year that I’ve actually resolved to lose weight.  I’ve mentioned doing it, but since I don’t know if changing from December 31 to January 1 makes much of a difference, I never declared it.  This year is it!

These past few years, I’ve learned a lot about myself, including that I don’t hold myself accountable.  Unless I have fairly immediately consequences to behaviors, there’s little to stop me from doing what I want to do (as my Pastor calls it – ‘soulish ties’ – I take after my mother).  I’m starting this blog and hopefully there will be someone out there that will listen and call me on my inaction.

How is this year different?  Well, I’ve already started to work out.  Been doing it for a few months now.  I’m already on a groove.

In order to be successful, you have to have a plan, so here it is:


On January 1, 2010, I started what’s called the Daniel Fast.  I’m not big on fasting, and I’m not doing it for weight loss although it has a weight loss benefit.  I’m not big on making drastic changes, but this year, I need it.  The Daniel Fast is supposed to help you with your spiritual growth as well as your physical cleansing.

After January 31, I will probably try a slew of “diets” to see what I like, I can and will do, and how far I will progress.


I also started the P90x series by Beachbody.  I love the mix of exercises and I can do it while watching television.  It’s a 90 day series, which you can repeat in different ways in order to get your desired results.  I’m on Day 25 (although since this week wasn’t great, I will probably repeat the recovery week).


So far, I like using SparkPeople.  It’s a website community of people looking to lose weight.  You can join groups, whether it’s by location or type or gender.  There are bulletin boards and endless amounts of recipes and information.

If you would like to follow me there, my screenname is BELLEREINE.

I feel like this entry is going to be long, so I’ll cut it off here.  I will have to take pictures to post for the site so you can track before and after.


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